A Decade Under The Influence

Drama

2006-01-13T05:53:51Z

So lets just start off by saying my computer is acting up and its infected with spywere and i dont know how to kill it, so if anybody could help me with that, that would be great.

Yesterday i had an emo entry and I feel totally embarrassed by it because it was way emo and I don’t like being like that. Im sorry to all who read the entry.

So Jonny is going to the desert tomorrow and he will be gone for 2 days, I haven’t seen him in almost 3 days, so im getting a little antsy as I go. But I don’t think it would have been a good idea to go with him to the desert anyways considering all the drama that so happened to come up out of nowhere last night. But I will miss Jonny and Christina terribly, and I hope they don’t get into any shit because I don’t want to bust them out of the slammer and have Jonny be wearing some slammer flower and shoes, it would devastated me. He’s such a cutie. I have made it 2 months with him and it’s been the best ever.

I wont be at total loss while they are gone, I got plenty of movies to watch and I think my old pal Kimmie is coming over to keep me company. I haven’t seen or talked to her in a while, we need to do some catching up. I miss her mucho.

Good bye

2005-07-13T00:59:08Z

I just got the guts to break up with Brian. Things didn’t go as well as I thought they would. He wasn’t thrilled about the fact that I was doing it. I told him that I felt he didn’t want me anymore when he talked about other girls calling him all hours of the night to talk about sex. Or when girls at school comment on how hot he is and then go and grab him, When he tells me about this beautiful girl at school that he's seen and noticed her because she was the most prettiest thing he has ever seen, And when he calls me at night to say the stupidest things to start an argument and then blames it on me when I tried to make a point. It just sucks because it just wasn’t right, just wasn’t what I wanted it to be like. He basically said that the reason why I was doing what I was doing (breaking up with him) was because he assumed I didn’t want him anymore and I was only doing myself a favor. I tried to tell him that I just wanted him to be happy and for me to be happy as well. If he really felt what he felt about those other girls, then I was giving him the opportunity to be with them and not cheat about it, not go behind my back. That’s when he told me to never talk to him ever again and he never wants to see me again. I guess that kinda hurt me more than anything...made the break a little harder than what I wanted it to be. But he didn’t understand that it was only going to get worse, someone was really going to get hurt if nobody did anything soon. I meant everything I said to him...even the I LOVE YOU...but I had to do it...I had to do it and now I don’t know how to get over it.

Random Day

2005-02-27T01:33:08Z

Well I haven’t updated in a while...sorry about that.

Life is good I guess...a little.

I had Ashley spend some time at my house for 3 days while her mom went to Vegas on business.....so I felt bad for Ashley because she’s way attached to her mom and her being away from her mom for 3 days is like me not having any Diet Coke for 3 months....yeah, I don’t know what she’s going to do when she grows up and has to move away. Yikes!!

School still suck! Just thought I would add that

Today me and Lauren went to do some stalking. But on the way I took some pictures of random things.

Picture of Lauren Driving.....On a freaking Mission!

We always see this car, but there’s always a different person driving it. But each guy we see driving it, has always been way hot. So it’s cool

On the way home these guys that are in jail going to work were honking and looking at me and Lauren...it was scary.

A random picture of me...What the hell Am I doing?

Yeah, I guess me and Lauren are going to go out tonight and do some more stalking....I might just come back with some more pictures. Ha

Im getting over Robbie. It’s sad because I still look at the things that we did...and it’s just something soo totally hard to stop thinking about.

All of the stars have faided away

2005-02-12T05:18:22Z

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

Friends only

2005-01-09T22:47:47Z

Merry Christmas!

2004-12-24T22:23:12Z

Merry Christmas Everybody!!!!
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